Wow!! One more day!!!!

I cant begin to describe all the excitement I am feeling, as tmorrow, Brad and I get married!!!!!! Crazy stuff!!!! I went through the Salt Lake Temple and received my endowments yesterday, and that was such an amazing experience. Even though it will take me a while to learn all the symbolisms and such. But it was still so amazing!!!! It is such a beautiful temple. I loved that Brad was able to walk me through the veil. It was there that I probably cried the most. I love him oh so very much and am so grateful for everything he has done for me. He really even doesnt get teary eyed alot, but yesterday, I saw a few tears, and he said that he had a hard time looking at me because everytime he did, he would get emotional. It is amazing. I'm so exited to go through Bountiful since the last time I was there, was when it got deticated way back a long time ago. So It will be so nice to see it again. Time has just flown by so fast. I just thought I would write today, since I wont have time to write anymore today or tomorrow. So the next time you will see me or hear from me, I will be LERRIN SAWYER!!!!!!!!!

so this is how I am feeling right now...

So, as I sit here in my room, looking at the almost empty space, I cant help but feel this overwhelming sense of emotion, as I let the fact that I am finally getting married, sink in. (Its about time huh) I think before, I knew I was getting married, and I was just stressing, but now that mostly everything is done to where I can just sit and wait for a little bit, until brad gets off work, and we go tie shopping for the men, it is finally sinking in, that WOW I AM GETTING MARRIED IN EXACTLY ONE WEEK. Just listening to songs today while I was packing, hence the empty space, and just started crying just because I cant believe that the part of my life that I have dreamt about for a long time, is finally here. And I am moving onto the next 2 chapters of my life, the first being, moving out of my parents house and moving in with Brad. I am looking forward to that part of just being on my own and not having my parents check on me every night to see when I was coming home, to having the midnight curfew, and now just being FREE!!!! I am more looking forward to getting married to Brad, my best friend and soul mate. The love of my life. I cant believe it is finally here. I thought it would take forever to get here back in August, but boy does time fly. I am glad that we had the 2 years of dating to really get to know eachother, even though I knew I wanted to marry him since like 3 months of dating. But he has been here for me through what I think is the hardest thing in my life, and he supported me, when I though he would run away. That was the moment where I knew I totally loved him and wanted to be with him forever. So cheers, with sparkling cider, to the next chapter in my life. Goodbye Lerrin Ott, in one week, and HELLO TO LERRIN JANAI SAWYER!!!!!!

so if you want to see my bridals,,,,

My sister has posted some of my bridal pics on her blog. Since I am not posting them on here yet until after the wedding, you can go check them out on her blog::::

tuckandchels.blogspot.com

I think alot of them are way cute. So there you go.

Love
Lerrin

its getting close

So WOW it is getting so close to the time of me being Mrs Sawyer. I cant believe it. Last night I was listening to 2 songs that made me start crying. One is the song i am dancing to with my dad called "I loved her first" and the other one is "Unanswered Prayers" by Garth Brooks. I still am trying to figure out why Brad came into my life when he did. I believe he is truly an unanswered prayer. That sounds cheesy but its true. I got my bridals done on saturday, and they turned out good.We went to Inkleys, and I thought they could haave been better, but then my mom and dad got a professional camera for christmas and we took some with that and those are so cute. I LOVE my dress and am so excited to wear it again. and i loved my hair that my sisters boyfriends sister did, that my sister payed for as a christmas/wedding gift to me. It turned out so good. I cant thank Chelsey enough. You are awesome Chels!!!!!

It's been a while.

So it has been a good while since I last wrote. Since the last time, I have gotten in a car wreck. That happened on the 8th of December, and it totaled my car, but its easy to fix. So no worries there. Im just driving around a rental that I am liking alot, so it is going to be hard to give up on Thursday.
A few residents died at work, Its the season of people leaving or dying, so our census has gone down a ton. So some of the CNAs have had to go home early all the itme. So that has been fun, NOT!!!! Just the passed couple days, starting on Christmas, we have had 3 deaths in 3 days, and its all been on the floor I mainly work on. So it has been a little hard to get used to not having them there after so long of me working with them. But oh well. It happens, and life goes on. I am getting used to people dying, and not taking it as hard as I did when I first had to death with the death of a resident for the first time. I love my job even though it does have crappy days, and I do have to work holidays, it does pay off because I am helping people who cant help themselves, and I love some of the residents.
So now, me and Brad are down to 39 days until the wedding. Which I think is so crazy!! It's amazing how time flies. I am getting so excited, but also so nervous too. We areent quite ready for the wedding to be here, but we still have 39 days. I go to an interview with my bishop in 2 weeks to get my temple reccomend so I am so excited for that. Im excited to be a part of the Sawyer family. They are all so awesome and I love them all so much. I am so glad I have gotten along with them all from day 1. They are just like my family. I think that is all the updating I need to do right now. So there you go..

Shay has tagged me, well not really me, but anyone but good heck im gonna do it

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

#1- Brad is my third boyfriend. How weird is that? I didnt get kissed, or get my first boyfriend until I was 19. I dont know but I just think its strange.

#2- I talk to myself sometimes when I am alone and really bored.

#3- I love going to Moab and getting the adrenaline rush of 4 wheeling on the really fun but dangerous trails. THANK YOU BRAD

#4- I always wanted to be a teacher up until 8 months ago, when I changed my mind and now want to be a nurse.

#5- I was way boy crazy when I was younger. I would meet a guy, take one look at him, and then talk about him for months. I was weird.

#6- I was born cross-eyed. I had to get a surgery to uncross them, and still sometimes they go crossed.

#7- My brain stem doesnt go all the way up to the top of my head like most people's do, So it takes me longer to think things like math and stuff

#8- I love Twilight. the movie is amazing. So are the books. I am excited to see the next movies

#9- I am getting married in 66 days!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#10- I have weird dreams about my residents at work, I dont know why.

#11- "Forgotten Carols" is my favorite play. I just love the spirit of Christmas that is there

#12- I have bever been anywhere further east then Wyoming, But in February I am honeymooning in Florida

#13- I cant wait to go toEngland in July.

#14- I like to play the piano.

#15- My brother and sister every once in a while tease me about when I was younger, having a crush on my neighbor who was like my moms and dads age. And I also had a crush on the weatherman, Dan Pope

#16- I think it is so hard to come up with 16 facts about myself. But I did it, now You can.

I tag everyone on my blog. Since I dont have 16 people yet, I just say everyone does it.

the weekend!

Ok so Thanksgiving I had to work, but it was ok because we were overstaffed so I went home until 5 and worked 5 to 9. So it wasnt as bad as I thought it was going to be. I had my dad's side of the family over before I went to work, and it was kindof enjoyable seeing them because I only see them 1 or 2 times a year even though they live in the Salt Lake area, we all are just not that close. I went to work, and after being sent home I went to Brads brothers house and had a little Thanksgiving over there. The food was good, what I ate of it because I was so full. I went back to work only to feed my residents and throw them in bed, and then left again. After I went over to Brad's dads house and had some pie over there, and we played the game "Signs" and that was way fun. I went home after that and went to bed. I lvoe Brad's family. I have gotten along with them from day 1 and they are just like my own. The rest of the weekend was just spent woring, and when I wasnt working, I was either home or with brad. On monday, which was yesterday, Brad was sick, and I went over to his house to spend time with him for a bit, and then last night we went to "Forgotten Carols" with Micheal McLean. For those of you who havennt seen it, I think you should. It is the best play. You can hear the meaning behind the words, and its just great. For any religion too. This is my 3rd year of seeing it and it just gets better and better each year. I actually closed my eyes and felt the meaning behind the words and started crying in all the songs. Like I said before, I highly reccomend it to all. That was my short weekend, and I now cant believe that its already getting so close to Christmas. The year has just flown by. AYE AYE AYE